Artificiality for a Girl

okok. this is gonna be my thoughts on artificiality for a girl.

for all i know. i'm probably more deeply involved in what i am now than in anything else becoz for this time, i think i got someone 50 paces behind me waiting for me to turn around.

i've come to realise the standards of girls by their number of ex-es.

btw, my com is so slow that by the time the screen writes a letter i've already written the five more ahead of it. so my keyboard is lagging. badly.

haha. but pretty cool. coz i'm typing faster than my computer. and with my kind of precision typing. yeah, its cool.

back to point.

from theological knowledge, so there can be no prejudice against me,

girls with zero ex and [lets say they all look decent lar]

they either have something definitely wrong about their character or attitude to things. or else its in the looks. or maybe they're too couped up with their social life or their own paths that they won't open the door to anyone else till the time is right. the best thing, you never know when it is right. btw, these have zero experience in relationship, and unless she's a theologist like me, which doesn't happen to people at all except me, good luck with the relationship. but once u get her, breaking the virginity of it usually is enough for her to never let you go. who lets go of their first whatever so easily? especially when it is in a field of neo-aspects.

girls with one ex [all the girls i'm referring to are those who don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend currently. u'd be surprised by the number of gal-gal relationships and guy-guy relationships.]

it depends on the age. all i'm stereotyping them to be of at least 2- years of worth in the relationship market. these, depending on their how long was the ex, if its been more than 6 months and still single, usually there's a good enough reason for why they don't have a boyfriend. these are more precarious and more potential than others. they got the experience but usually scared of another one. damn hard to open them up. otherwise, if its juz recently, the chances of getting them are significantly higher as they still have the edge to be loved and that kind of feeling takes time to go away. for normal cases.

i've got to remind you all that i'm not talking about exceptionals whatsoever.

if 2-3 ex then these are probably the most suitable. they got the experience, they know how to handle, but usually, if you got more than one ex then its either one who cannot handle the relationship. more ex usually correspond to lower handling ability in relationship. meaning unstable. so these categories will open their hearts. if taken as generic, one ex probably took some time before they died off. so chances are, they know how to pick. they have a higher standard and if one knows how to keep them, probably successful for life. if they can handle it. if let say all that is said are the same in terms of duration in the world of relationships, and of the same age, chances are, these are a good keep.


4-6 ex. they are probably more flirtious than others. no harm in that. but if in the same time and age they got more ex than others, like i said, probably can't keep relationships well and usually breakage is created by conflicts between both. easy to get, hard to keep. as the number of ex goes up, the easier to jio dao, but easier to break away. its simple principality. like a lock. first time you're latched its fk hard to let go if you want to. many times later attaching is super east coz all the mechanisms are worn and old. in metaphorical terms thats how it goes. don't take it to literal.

7 -10++ ok. these are probably the worst. they will always need to find the love there. and first few days of the relationships are probably gonna be the best. but when u realise that she needs you a hell lot and dosn't really give you time to do your things and stuff, it's gonna be a bummer. usually, they're like click and go. not happy switch. hard to keep. but usually these are those wtfh-chio de.

in terms of chio, the more chio the possibility, if got a lot of ex, of attitude being good is little. but if in terms of attitude, the less, the more better the girl, as in will last a long time.

and one more thing.

if you want to know if you really love that someone.

this is fking important.

take your someone, make another hundred copies of it who looks the same dress the same and sound the same. jio u the same way, happen to nearly possess everything he has like where he stay, school he goes to, intellect... why would your someone be different? why would your someone be better than him, why would you love him rather than the rest.

if you love becoz of looks, fk off. looks determine first impression. that's all.

and if there were a thousand guys, would you still choose your someone if all of them jio-ed you and possibly are the stereotypical guys that know how to jio, kiss and blah blah?

if you fking love your someone becoz he's the only person you can love. fk off. that's no love. that's called force love. even i can do that to a girl. no wait. i can't.

haha. but if you love someone becoz of looks, becoz he's the onli person that you can love that you don't have a broken past with, that is new, that you can start afresh, that becoz you want to feel the love again coz your ex left you,

then fk off.

right now, the only thing i'm scared is that becoz of limitations love can't even exist anymore. haha. i want to be loved becoz of me, not becoz of who i am, but becoz who i made myself into.