Deciding to be F***ed up

Back to the stupid question that I have hounded upon for nearly 4 years and still running.

How does one know the fuck whether they love anyone or not?

And of course, my standard answer is this.

Given a multitude of potential people, as in a hell lot of people, why would one pick that one?

And this, ensures that I will always get my life back.

From here on, it's just me, my life and nothing else. I so swear, that I will not bend or compromise to anyone else's rule, except my khaki.

I want to run, and be able to run.

And if I can't run anymore, someone please tell me to pick myself up, and keep on running. The only identity I will bother to consider ever again will be those that can catch up to me.

Goals

Ok.

Chapter 2 by end december

cross acid by end december

say something substantial in jap by end december

elfen lied by end december

What I've Done by end Jan 1st Week

Chapters layout by end Jan 1st week

Chapter 3 by end Jan 1st week

cross acid toe by end Jan 1st week

chobits by end Jan 1st week

school rumble by end jan 1st week

Pushing me Away by end Jan 2nd Week

Rubik cube by end Jan 2nd week

Chapter 4 by end Jan 2nd Week

lucky star by end Jan 2nd week

Hayate no Gotoku by end Jan 2nd week

negima manga latest chap by end jan 2nd week

My December by end Jan 3rd Week

Chapter 5 by end Jan 3rd Week

unity by end Jan 3rd week

FLCL by end Jan 3rd week

strawberry eggs by end Jan 3rd week

Chapter 6 by end Jan

say something interestingly substantial in jap by end january

cowboy bebop by end jan

no more gaming, and moving on to real life.

Yeah.. it's ME!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDfSfpZDr2w&feature=user

Tyco is one thing, I also can super suae.

At 5th December at 4e1/4e2 chalet, yes, both same day same location for all 3rd 4th and 5th of December, that is Tyco. Me me me!

anyway, at that time we go bathe, and halfway, if i got it correct, here goes.

"&^%*& la!" [started by either zhi yung or caleb...]

there after got a lot of scolding from our group.

me, lerbies, kok wee and kenneth were bathing first in the cubicle, in order of furthest from the toliet door.

evans, zhi yung terence and melvin camp outside, since onli got 4 cubicles.

so scold scold scold then kw play water.

he was like

"don't spray la! @#$%@" when he said it he spray.

so, two cubicles away kena me. i tot it was caleb, since he's the onli one beside me in cubicle, the otherside was the wall.

i scold caleb.

scold scold, he scold back coz nt him, then i tot so XL, spray still scold, so scold louder.

"@#$%" [felix]

"@#$%@#$" [caleb]

"#%@#$%@#$%@#$% bodoh" [felix]

yea, its malay for stupid.

so, then the security guard come in.

"OI!" [guard] shout damn loud, everyone saw him and heard him shaddup, except kw who went

"kao bei arh" [kw] lol then the guard talk

"scold bobo what? very funny izzit? scold bobo and spray water?" [guard] bobo? i said bodoh suddenly got someone called bobo in my group. dunno how bodoh = bobo. but anyway we got a bobo.

"come on out of your cubicle" [guard] the other seven all shaddup, the four outside saw him mah, then the rest heard the malay voice.

when he said come out, all hum ji damn scared then like "jia lat jia lat knn shit man..."

this is wad i did.

i threw my underwear on the door, hang mah... bathe rite? then threw my pants over my underwear, coz underwear lighter, scared fly off. then door high, so nd force [physics] to throw it over properly, then coz my pants got belt, got the "pang" sound, then coz suddenly v quiet, so v noisy. then immediately after i go bathe mah, then got the water "goooosh gooosh" sound.

like "come out!" then i like ignore him go bathe, zhun zhun "out" my underwear hang over, then coz he outside can see mah, then everyone laughing, but dun dare laugh... coz scared but damn funny.

then i scold, coz v quiet, then thinkin they PS me.

"scold scold scold kanasai lar cheebye" [felix] everyone diam le

i know i scold a lot during the silence.

"#@$%@#$%@#$^@#$%@#^@#$^%@#$%@^&@#$%@#^$@#$%" [felix]

then i think the guard scared, coz i spam mah... then after that got another silence.

i find it quite weird everyone shaddup, but then silent marh... so then as he leaving, i said

"na bei..." like the wa lau, hum-ji-izzit that tone. then everyone like wanna laugh but scared. but the guy never kao bei back, he scared i think... i think he think i pai kia...

the environment damn hilarious.

then when i come out of the cubicle.

they all say

"wa lau, pro nia, scold security guard."

"what guard?" [felix]

SkatArs

The world is small. It got smaller. And when i got into the world. There was no place for me because everyone had something, somewhere, somebody to go to.

So im back from hope to diablo2e and killing andariel. that reminds me. level up my FF character...

Testimonials

Testimonials

Caleb – In a way, when he’s grumpy, I don’t like him. And I also don’t like the way it’s only my turn to XL him at Fridays when we used to chiong dota after school. But, for him, he’s a better friend than most. Like those miniature characters in those games where you don’t quite depend on but need them. And thanks for the playstation 1.

Chan Ivin – AH!!! TEACHER WHO PWNS AT DOTA AND WOW!! Lol. First time I met such a fatal teacher. So maybe I don’t pay attention to his bio class, but I love bio because its interesting and Chan can make it so. For the dota for the games for the youth for Chan!!

Chin Kheng – If anything, if I did good in academics, he did better. If I did better, he was the best. Haha. Amazing how he got time for dota and sleep in class as well as topping nearly everything. 7 awards? Lol. Strong character to start with, true potential. Not to be reckoned with.

Darren – Firstly, the dude I came to distrust the most. Seriously, I could never trust him at one point. Today, after 4 years of friendship, there are things I rather confide in him. While my life doesn’t quite revolve around his, its glad you got someone that has nearly the same interest as you. All thanks to him for introducing to me Heroes and all the writing inspiration.

Emerson – The anti-luck person!! Haha. As tyco as me but more towards harbinger than help. But he’s fun, he can spit and he’s hilarious. Of course, there’s always the lame illogical wisdom he gives that saves your life periodically. Chee!!

Freddy – Diablo stealer! Haha. Nice guy, except when it comes to hunting down a punching bag. One of those standard-issue friends you gotta have, kinda like not for the numbers but for the friend itself.

Gn – I start to know him more by his family name than his given name. But we all know who he is. Thee Alvin!! Haha. Meet him over Ragnarok. Damn lols. Well, he’s reliable and one of my good AMK-ian friends. For Subway and Sakae!!

Goh Shirley – Ah… My SS and geog teacher. Personally, the best class to sleep in cause she doesn’t really bother. But she gives lots of notes and all the best to her teaching classes!

Graham – The cool, aloof wandering boy. Easy to be with but harder know. Companion buddy!! For cool!

Hong Cherh – Warhammer fantasy!! Ok ok, so I lost the battle for lizardmen ownage. But heck, rare to find a fantasy player. Lame, as most of them are, but the more pro-lame. Haha. Lizzies and 44!

Huda – Aduh! Did I make that up? Or kena copyrighted? Anyway, friendly, explosive and often unpredictable character that livens up the class but of course, not without its abuses. Need to find a smile, find huda.

Huey Lin – Always admired the fact she could do well in studies. So I always plotted to do better than her in academics. Apparently it hasn’t been true for awhile. Lol.

Ian – THAILAND!!! STINGRAY!! This is the dude that showed me the path of OBS!! Ahaha. Had fun times. He’s reliable, effective, and taught me the principal of saving time. A hardworking, one to follow.

Jaclyn – In some ways, while we’re not as close as a lot of people I know out there, by chance by luck I learnt another important lessons. Well, a few. One by accident the others by lessons. Haha.

Jerome – All hail Xbox pro. Can’t thrash him anywhere on TV consoles. Except his famed freedom gundam pwned by my weird dog like gundam. Lol. Monumental event. He’s hardworking, his notes are stack high, and he never fails to be lame and funny, despite not trying to.

Jia Li – She’s good in studies. Top in NCC. Lol. Respectable role model. One of those interesting characters I regard highly off.

Jia Ying – Made more of an impact during sec 3 than sec 4. But fun to hang around with, and she has this trait of not easily letting go small minor situations. Interestingly an ability that can bring small smiles to faces.

Jie Ying – Gingers. Anway, this is my foundation friend. The person I built my identity along side. Haha. 2e2 we don’t care!! Lols. She taught me a lot of reality and made me realise a lot of mistakes I did with my life. Hard to forget this one. Especially when everyday I’m wearing the spectacles with the little weird stickers she placed on them. Gambatte!

Jun Ru – A pretty individual, to speak. For her, the most admirable would be the jumping of streams in academics. Its like she doesn’t bother about around her and pushes forward despite anything. Traits to be remembered.

Justina – A nice person if you’re on her good sides, otherwise easy to be with and laughable. Friendly, interactive and socially nice. She taught me a lot of things I can’t learn from a guy. Lol.

Karen – One of those unique individuals that’s like a falling leaf into a pond. Study character somewhat in which I respect.

Kenneth – ah.. the bugger who I can’t seem to acknowledge that he has real friends. Him and the cheesecake. Lol. Technically, powerful. Not to mess around, with all his weird hacks and programs. Lol. My 88 buddy!

Lena – She can study. Haha. Met her randomly before. Friendly face to know.

Leonard Liew – This is the idol I respect and admire. He does it all I dream of. Writing, gaming and food. You got no idea how much those mean to me. The person who taught me to train my stomach!! Of course, he’s the first pro I give recognition. Another writing inspirator. Actually the only other one. Subway and Sakae! All hail Lao Na.

Markus – Ah. The bugger who bullies me. Taller, clean faced bugger. Lol. But if you can get on his nice side, pretty easy to be with. Kinda like another paddy but beats me up more. Marko!

Natasa – Don’t really come into contact, but she’s nice. Changed quite a bit as well. Haha. Another random friendly face to know.

Olivia – Ok, so maybe approach-wise and initiating conversation isn’t really a good inherent thing to be judged, but she’s nice. More of the rugged “this-is-mine” type. Haha. An ideal person to look up to if you need space.

Paddy – Tall towering unbearably lame. He always look cooler than me, so that’s one of the reason I gave up trying to look cool. Paddy and his handphones. First thing in accident is his phone. Lol. Kinda like those “diao….” Big brothers to me. For lame for height!

Pauline – for the ex-prefects! Haha. Meet in a weird weird way, but dangerously illuminating one. A sweet charming individual.

Ron – Scrabble. Haha. Not bad actually. More of the stoic aristocratic class I generally can’t be in, but nice in that he has sort of a “self-driven path” feel to him.

Sean – Lololololololololololol! Anyway, he is the second hockey fanatic after me in this school. Probably plays better than me coz he has the stamina. For hockey!!! Haha. Also nearly the only guy I can join those hamachi games of dota. Otherwise, this guy, my 2-3 month O level study buddy, is my “khaki” also. XD

Shaohui – Interesting history to remember. Always there for me despite times of studying, ignorance, anger, hurt or important times I shouldn’t even be interrupting. Haha. In some ways a friend I can never match up to be.

Soon Hock – He’s hilarious. I mean, in anything he can add spunk. But otherwise too much spunk is always bad for health. But it’s better than sugar. Fish! I got a grouper in my fish tank that is called soon hock, so I can’t quite forget him. Haha.

Terence – Same class for 10 years. That is wicked. Anyhow, I got more connections to him than anyone else. Absolutely my trustable source. While sometimes he gets on my nerves, its that that makes him a good friend. For 10 years of same class!!

Vincci – One of those sorts that are ignorant of critics and goes her own way. Makes her own path and follows it, unlike many out there. There are simply people who you can’t weigh down.

Wasi – Ah. The rehman. Funny likeable character no one can come to dislike. Seemingly potential in knowing people. He like knows everyone? Haha. Too many friends he said. But, definitely a very helpful dude.

Wei Ming – I doubt he’ll read this. Anyhow, this is the one other “khaki” that comes out no matter when, even though he has something important on and will do anything to extricate himself out of his situation to meet me and Sean. Also, all the midnight supper training!! Haha. He’s a bit too free for me, but he is like me. Call me and I’m going.

Wei Ting – Another random friendly face. Nice going too. And of course, easily tickled.

William – Captivated easily, but of course, sets his own rules to follow. Recently begun to be more pro in games. Lol. No offence, but he can learn fast. Soon he’ll be one of those top people.

Willie – One of the arcade drummers I used to hang out with. More of the silent type but forward ones. You can’t quite get bored with him. The kid that I challenged on sobakasu completion for extreme. Lol. A historic event.

Wilson – Ah, the guy that’s always hardworking. Cool nice and friendly to talk to.

Ye Tong – OMG!! Haha. He’s inevitably the most interesting character in our school. Quirky, abit too much, and of course, causes the most jokes. He is hilarious, in all aspects, and I mean in everything. Need to de-stress, go to him.

Yew Chuen – Ah, the wannabe owner in games. Well, he does own in a lot of stuff. Nice to talk to, while crushingly lame, often a good person to chat with.

Zhi Yung – Caused one of the lesser known incidents. But he’s nice. Although abit too much of self-guided, he can follow a path he choses.

Zi Yang – My far far neighbour! Friendly, nice-going and good to hang out with. I remember one night he accompanied me for supper that night I brought home a tortoise I caught on the road. Easily a friend to be with.